Kevin's Dream States

  • Evening of May 5, 2021

    Dream Goal Remember my dream (had no recollection from May 4) Meditation and Sleep Meditation at 11:45pm. Went to bed at 12:00am. Woke at 6:30am and recalled this dream: Geordi La Forge from Star Trek: The Next Generation, holding a “science baby”. Building a fence that needs to be built around at the side of my house on Bartley Bull Pky, between mine and Terri & Penny’s yard. Intentionally placing photos of Toby around the new house in Papineau in bad placements, to always remember him and force ourselves to talk about him. Contemplation & Connections I have no idea…

  • Evening of May 3, 2021

    Dream Goal: Have an out-of-body experience. Meditation and Sleep: Meditation at 11:45pm. Went to bed at 12:00am. Woke at 6:30am and recalled: Riding my cargo bike from the CIBC/Superstore toward Shoppers World. Rode through intersection, taking a shortcut through the transit terminal with no mask on. A transit staff member tried to flag me down like a child, motioning with their finger. I pretend to not see them and keep going, pretending to start putting mask on. Went back to sleep, woke at 6:45am and recalled: A different perspective of the same transit terminal at Shoppers World. More like an…

  • Evening of May 2, 2021

    Dream Goal: To see Toby Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at 12:50am. Recalled this dream: Adela and Sebastian re-applying for high-school at the same time. The challenging of balancing their different scheduled felt tangible. I could feel the weight of it. Contemplation & Connections This dream reminds me to be mindful of challenges we are going to face as we move out of our house, and into our new home once it’s built in Papineau. We’re trying to respect the fact that it’s Adela’s last year of high school, while Sebastian is amiable to moving to a…

  • Evening of May 1, 2021

    Dream Goals: Green-light Toby What do I need to know? Meditation and Sleep Saw these images during a 7-minute guided meditation: Riding a bicycle through a park. Park had children. Did not recognize any of them. Panning/gliding through John and Wendy’s (felt like “Nanny” and “Grandad” was appropriate) kitchen in Milton, Ontario. John was trying to place a meal tray on the kitchen table. It was sunny outside. Went to bed at about 12:20am. Woke up at 7:20am. Recalled this dream: Justin Trudeau getting a hole-in-one in mini-putt on live U.K. T.V. The last course required a player to strike…

  • Evening of April 30, 2021

    Goals: Experience Toby Ask: What do I need to know? Thank Toby Meditation and Sleep Tried a shorter meditation before going to sleep. Went to bed at about 12:10am. Woke up at 6am. Recalled this dream: A Facebook post I had made at some point of an example aspirational DIY home build project. Someone commented with skepticism, included some negative counterpoints. Example video was posted in comments of people renting a home and making a mess of it outside. Contemplation & Connections I think I should try fewer goals. I also think I should try a different or longer guided…

  • Evening of April 29, 2021

    Goal: Why Toby and needles? Context: After documenting a synchronicity about different instances of Toby getting needles, I want to try understanding this better. During a pre-sleep guided meditation session, I experienced these 2 visions: Existing in Toby’s body while I was trying to make him comfortable during his palliative care. A close-up of a field of green unmanicured grass, with a single plant with reddish leaves. Went to bed at about 12:00am. I awoke at 5:20am to use the toilet. Upon waking up, recalled a dream of a fitness instructor pointing to the muscles on the back of the…

  • Evening of April 28, 2021

    I was inspired to re-explore lucid dreaming, after having not seriously exploring it since I was a teenager, almost 25 years ago. I went to sleep with a simple objective: I want to see Toby. When I woke up, I actually remembered some elements of my dream state. Some are now fuzzy (I didn’t record them down right away, which is why I’ve started this blog). The elements I remember clearly, are: A construction/back-hoe vehicle excavating a hole. A sequence where a wealthy couple were talking about marriage. A particular word stood out: “Benefactor”. When I woke up, I asked myself:…