Kevin's Dream States

  • Evening of March 15, 2024

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at about 11:00 pm and woke up at about 6:30 am. Dream It’s been a while since I’ve added anything to this site. Coincidentally, the last entry was around the time Enid and Asher were born. *LOL* On the evening of March 15, they both actually slept, which was great! That also meant I had a dream, which wasn’t necessarily so great. Naturally, I had a dream about Toby. In the dream, Toby was still alive, with cancer. I got the feeling that it was still terminal, but he…

  • Evening of November 18, 2022

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at about 11:00 pm with the twins and woke up at about 8:30 am. Dream We were in the new house, at the Papineau farm. There was a family of foxes playing in the yard. I called out and got the attention of one of them — a younger, inquisitive one. It ran toward the house, climbed up to the window, and chittered at us. I distinctly recall this fox being slightly paler, and having a wider face than the other foxes. Contemplations and Connections I find it interesting…

  • Evening of September 27, 2022

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at 11:00 pm and woke up at 6:30 am. Dream I found myself at a cooking event with Gordon Ramsay. A group of us were preparing lunch. For some reason, I thought it was appropriate to eat what I cooked before it could be evaluated. I don’t think I realized we were being evaluated, but that it was an event to enjoy the experience of cooking. Woops. By the time I realized my error, it was too late to do anything about it. I didn’t make any excuses. I…

  • Evening of July 28, 2022

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at 12:00 am and woke up at 7:00 am. Dream We recently purchased new tires for our van. In my dream, I dreamt that those tires, only months old, had started to degrade, crumble, and pick apart from the rim. Contemplations and Connections We’ve been spending a lot of money recently to keep the van on the road. All expected costs: Transmission, coolant lines, brakes, tires, etc. But, it all adds up. And, we’re also spending a lot of money on baby stuff. Our washing also recently broke down,…

  • Evening of June 26, 2022

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at 11:30 pm and woke up at 6:30 am. Dream I saw Toby again. This time, it was like revisiting a memory. I was following him as he climbed down the stairs from our home in Brampton from his bedroom. When he reached the main level, the layout of the room felt different. It reminded me of the living room of my home where I grew up in Brampton, which had a similar layout (it was also in Peel Village). I then realized this wasn’t quite a memory, it…

  • Evening of June 19, 2022

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at 11:30 pm and woke up at 6:00 am. Dream I saw Toby. He was advanced in years, with grey hair and dry, wrinkled skin. He had glasses. Yet, he was still the same height as when he was 12, and still jaundiced. In the dream, it turns out he had simply disappeared. Got lost. Ended up living his life completely separate from ours, but was very much alive. Contemplations and Connections Wow. Clearly my brain is still having problems with accepting the truth of Toby’s death. Perhaps it…

  • Evening of May 29, 2022

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at 11:30 pm and woke up at 6:00 am. Dream I had broken the news to my father that Emily and I are expecting twins, and that we had gone to a sperm donor. He wasn’t happy. In my dream, it was Sean that had shared Dad’s disappointment. He said something to the effect of Dad having to have been admited a few times to something (I don’t remember what, I think it was an acronym) like “WERC” — I honestly don’t remember clearly what the health unit was,…

  • Evening of May 4, 2022

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at 11:30 pm and woke up at 6:30 am. Dream A colleague of mine, Andrea Fischer from AIR MILES, died horrifically in a car crash. Somehow, I was named as someone she trusted to help handle her affairs. I found myself among her family. She had a brother from Australia, who didn’t know how to handle her 2 children (which she doesn’t actually have, yet). I took the kids out for Pizza and to play at a nearby park, inviting her brother to join us later as he felt…

  • Evening of April 14, 2022

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at 11:30 pm and woke up at 7:00 am. Dream I met Beardyman! I don’t know why. I don’t know the setup. But we got to talk about the first time I saw him on YouTube (Live at The Underbelly), and the challenges with “throat bass”. Contemplations and Connections I have no idea how this dream relates to anything. But it did occur to me that I should reach out to an old college professor of mine, Paul (Shaul) Shector, who also has a beard.

  • Evening of March 5, 2022

    Dream Goal None Meditation and Sleep No meditation. Went to bed at 12:19am and woke up at 7:00am. Dream Toby was older. Maybe late teens or early twenties. He still had a soft complexion like he was 12, but he also had facial hair. His hair looks like it had natural red highlights. He was in the hospital, looking unhappy. There was a conversation about whether Toby was “well enough to rejoin society”. Contemplations and Connections Toby vaguely resembled a young man that recently presented for the Fibrolamellar Carcinoma Foundation on rare diseases day. We knew from early in Toby’s…