Dream Goal
Toby
Meditation and Sleep
Meditation at 12:15am. Went to bed at 12:30am. Woke at 6:30am and recalled this dream:
Sebastian’s friend, Theo (whom I lovingly call “The Commodore”, had organized and started a soccer match, but scored before we were ready.
Contemplation & Connections
What really stood about to me about this dream was the feeling of injustice and unfairness. We showed up to the match, we were ready to play. The whistle blew and we were put at a disadvantage immediately. There are many parallels here with how I feel about Toby’s cancer. We did everything we could to play by the rules, go through the process of diagnosing what was wrong with Toby. We were prepared to fight for him. By the time we knew what we were dealing with, we were already at a disadvantage. We were too late to save Toby’s life.