Dream Goal
None
Meditation and Sleep
No meditation. Went to bed at 11:30 pm and woke up at 6:30 am.
Dream
I saw Toby again. This time, it was like revisiting a memory. I was following him as he climbed down the stairs from our home in Brampton from his bedroom. When he reached the main level, the layout of the room felt different. It reminded me of the living room of my home where I grew up in Brampton, which had a similar layout (it was also in Peel Village).
I then realized this wasn’t quite a memory, it was something else. The appearance of Toby was translucent, and he walked through a couch as he entered the living room. It was then I realized in this dream that I was actually following Toby’s ghost.
In a subsequent dream, I saw Toby’s ghost appear in our house on Bartley Bull, after we had sold it to new buyers. I invited Toby’s spirit to come with us to Mattawa.
Contemplations and Connections
I feel like my mind is trying to reconcile the eventuality of us moving to Mattawa, with the fact that I feel like Toby’s “ghost” is here in Peel Village (Brampton). While I intend to create many different ways to remember Toby when we move to Mattawa, there will always be one thing I cannot re-create, or take with me: The house where Toby grew up.