Dream Goal
None
Meditation and Sleep
No meditation. Went to bed at 11:30 pm and woke up at 6:00 am.
Dream
I saw Toby. He was advanced in years, with grey hair and dry, wrinkled skin. He had glasses. Yet, he was still the same height as when he was 12, and still jaundiced.
In the dream, it turns out he had simply disappeared. Got lost. Ended up living his life completely separate from ours, but was very much alive.
Contemplations and Connections
Wow.
Clearly my brain is still having problems with accepting the truth of Toby’s death. Perhaps it always will.
Interestingly, this dream felt a lot like one of the dreams I’ve where, in them, I “realize” that I missed a credit in high school, or college, and so didn’t actually graduate.
Similarly, in this dream, it felt like I missed, or misplaced, something. He’s not dead, Toby’s just misplaced. I must have overlooked something.
If only it was that simple.